3.9.10 6.58pm

Listening to some Beatles
No idea why I've been feeling empty and depressed lately
I haaate it, showing people that I'm down
Makes me feel..Asdfghjkl;

I think I'm getting _____ that one person.
Which should be good I suppose
Even though I hate being lonely

So I was thinking about Christianity the other day..
I think there's too many religions based to God
I are an Athiest
I just can't believe there is a God when all these things happen in the world..
I don't want to get into too much of religion; might offend someone and/or start a flame war.

Been eating alot of bread...
Wonder why I still use alot when its not a word..
Reminds me when I play Scrabble with my sister and her friends
Scrabble Saturday~

Urge to temporarily quit..but I won't
And I can't
I hate my addiction to Maplestory
So time-consuming

Been hearing stuff about me
Rumors, Shit, Nonsense
Oh well

I miss several people
But it's always Christine I miss the most
I wish she'd just come back
Or answer her phone..
Or go on at least once a week.
Ffs once a month would be marvelous


I still don't want to talk about why I've been really emotional and depressed(which is retarded)
I need professional help.
I can't put my guard down ever for my friends.
I would rather talk to some stranger with open ears.


Do I really have to have a title..oh well I'll put a date.


Homosexuality..
I wish, I wish I was a fish
Life would be hell of alot easier if I weren't gay.
There we go again, Scrabble Saturday.
Anyways I do realized there's nothing wrong with it.
But I hate how my society deals with it.
Laughed upon, Mocked and thought of as not right.
Mostly straight men or not really men, but boys do.
A so called friend thought of my sexuality as a joke ^^


Then again, it is very true that gays get more sex than straight men
It's alot easier.
I mean seriously, 2x the testosterone?
Women actually know how to close there legs..well most women


Wow....As i was writing this, I got a text saying some bullshit Asdfghjkl;fuckmylife.


I can't even believe I wrote this, nothing I hate more than showing my depression.
It makes me feel like an attention whore.
It's just that for some reason I will instantly think that my friend would think I'm being sad for attention.
'Boohoo my life sucks, make me feel better ^^'
I Absolutely hate it.
Retarded; I know right?

Well yeah, I wish I can just stop bitching, when my life can be so much worse, so, so, much worse.
I wish I can just get over it, I really do.
It's not like I have painful diseases, and be abused daily..
I really have no reason nor any right to write this blog.
Just shows how much of a bitch I am.

time started: 4:37 pm, March 8th
time published:7:22 pm March 9th